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beware with your words..

April 12th, 2009 by echahchom

org kate terlajak perahu boleh di undur..terlajak kata buruk padah nye..hm..tu lah yg aku tgh face skrg..suke2 je nk ckp org tah pape..skrg,sndri mau igt a..slh aku sbb pcy kat org lain…slh aku sbb x ty die direct btol2…slh aku sbb tros judge die dpd ape yg org ckp..salah aku sbb tanak bg chance pn kat die utk explain everything…sume salah aku…n aku tau..there’s nothing aku bleh wat skrg..mtk maaf je..tp klo tuduhan tuh mlampau,igt sng2 ke die nk maaf kn aku..judgement aku salah,igt sng2 ke ktorg leh baik balik cm ner ktorg baik sblm nih…haduih…bodoh nye aku ni..emo tak tentu arah..keras ati tak tentu pasal..kn sndri jgk yg kene..hmm…tah la..

all i can say to him im sooo sory…sori sgt2..i know i cant fix it sbb tuduhan tuh mmg mlampau..tp really hope u’ll forgive me of what im saying…if lepas nih,da tanak kwn pn,org phm je..that’s the price that i hve to pay..sori sgt2..siti aishah bte mohd azhar sgt ingin memohon maaf kepada org yang dimaksudkan..sgt2 sori..sori…sori…sori…n sori…sgt sori~

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forgive but not forget~

February 25th, 2009 by echahchom

kije kat tempat yang aku kije nih sgt la mengaja aku untuk tak jadi dri aku..ye la…mase blaja dlu,klo de pape yg x puas ati,leh men tros emo je..ni dah jmpe ngn org2 kat ‘dunia luar’,klo nk emo2 jgk,silap hari bulan,aku yg kne balik wlo pn bnde nye bkn slh aku pn…

 

nway..nk jadi cite,filing last year yg aku dok t’congok2 buat,skali bos ilang kan fail nye…abih…ape aku leh wat..xkn a nk mrah bos kot an…pa2 die plk ngn tak rs b’salah nye soh aku wat balik sume2 tuh…haduih la..nih yg aku hangin nih…da a die yg ilang kn…pa2 siap gune kuase veto die plk soh aku wat balik kije2 yg sgt makan mase…dlm mase yg same,de je kje tambahan len yg die bg..soooo whatever~

pa2 de plk la org len nih,aku dok pnt2 nk cover slh org,die pn amik kesempatan…ape la aku leh buat klo bnde nye sume dr big bos..org2 tuh skadar menyampaikan tp bg aku dorg lepas tgn..sbb bkn dorg x tau yg kije tuh sbnr nye dorg leh cover gk…sibuk la masing2 nak amik kesempatan d atas kesempitan org lain…nih yg aku mls nih..tetibe plk skrg nih aku da ade tabiat baru~aku da mls nk angkat tpn..lps je opis hour,aku da x angkat call from any  unknown no+org2 kat tmpt kije..klo bnde yg dorg nk smpai kn tu penting,dorg leh jz msg je…klo dorg x msg,bg aku x penting..smpai big bos aku nye call pn aku x angkat..seb bek die tggl msg…n mmg pnting pn task nye..huh…sori la wei…aku pnt a..pnt mental

 

ade plk tuh yg ske nak m’complicated kn kije…bnde nye leh wat cr mudah..tp yg die nih dok sibuk nk bising memanjang..klo bising nye tuh bising yang m’bantu,ok gk…nih kije nye nk cr slh org len,nk ckp org len x reti wat kije,dok asek nk pelekeh org,sume2 lah..yg die tau,die je yg bagus,die je yg betol,die je yg ok..padahal sndri pn x disiplin..bos da bg masuk lmbt pn,die dok dtg lmbt dpd mase yg bos bg..bos plk cm diam je…tipu la klo bos x tau..aku brani bet bos aku tau je..tp nk wat caner..x kn aku plk nk over dpd bos..

 

aku nk bising2 lebih pn,aku nih da la kecik,mude plk tuh dpd dorg2…jgn la harap dorg nk dgr..n tetibe jgk aku de lagi 1 habit best kat tmpt kije~bile org ckp,aku wat muke ‘kosong’..ko komplain la ape pn,ko ckp la ape pn,ko bising la ape pn,cm tu la jgk respon aku..MUKE ‘KOSONG’..best wo wat habit nih..t dorg bnti sndri..x pyh susah2 nk soh dorg diam..satu ag habit,bile dorg bising,aku diam..bile dorg diam pn aku diam..mls a..org2 mcm nih,klo kt ckp pn,sia2 je…jd nye,im avoiding p’kare yg sia2 here..hohoh..

 

klo kt x leh ubah org,kt la yg kne b’ubah..jd nye aku jd la seorg echah yg pendiam kat tmpt kije..cm x caye kn??cm ner a echah senyap agak nye..hm,try la ty pijan(mmbr same2 uia~m’besar n b’program same2 dlu)..dia pn nek cuak bile aku diam…hohoh..sian die..kate nye,aku yg bising lagi ok dpd aku yg diam…hm,nk wat caner…aku mls nk bising..mls nk emo2…mls nk marah2…mls nk tego2..bkn masing2 x tau…masing2 pn jenis nk ckp ‘lebat’ je…wat ape aku jd cm dorg gk an…huh…wat a life..

 

cme nk kate nye,aku maaf kn je ape yg dorg da wat kat aku..tp aku x leh lupe a..bkn in a way dendam ke ape ke…tp aku rase more towards aku b’hati2..dont wanna b hurt anymore..n dont wanna hurt org len mcm mane dorg hurt aku…thats all..layaaan~

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LEAVE OUT ALL THE REST~

February 3rd, 2009 by echahchom

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I’m done here
So if you’re asking me
I want you to know


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
And don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest


Don’t be afraid
I’ve taken my beating
I’ve shared what I made
I’m strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I’ve never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you’re asking me
I want you to know


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are


When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I’ve done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don’t resent me
And when you’re feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest


Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You’ve learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can’t be who you are
I can’t be who you are

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CINTA YANG SEMPURNA BY KANGEN BAND

February 3rd, 2009 by echahchom

Seiring angin lalu

Begitu cinta kita

Takkan pernah binasa

Meski terhapus masa

Terima kasih Tuhan

Kau telah sempurnakan

Telah Engkau ciptakan

Dia untuk diriku

Lupakan aku bila itu terbaik untukmu

Jangan pernah kau tanyakan cinta dan ketulusan

yang kau pn tak punya

Biarlah aku akan pergi

Tinggalkan semua cinta ini

Selamanya

Patahkanlah sayapku

Saat aku mencuba

Berpaling dari kasih dan sayang mu

Maka bunuhlah aku

Bila aku mencuba

Berpaling dan mencari pengganti mu

Seiring angin lalu

Begitu kisah kita

Takkan pernah ternoda

Meski terhapus masa

Terima kasih Tuhan

Kau telah sempurnakan

Telah Engkau ciptakan

Dia untuk diriku

Lupakan aku bila itu terbaik untukmu

Jangan pernah kau tanyakan cinta dan ketulusan

Yang kau pn tak punya

Biarlah aku akan pergi

Tinggalkan semua cinta ini

Selamanya

Patahkanlah sayapku

Saat aku mencuba

Berpaling dari kasih dan sayang mu

Maka bunuhlah aku

Bila aku mencuba

Berpaling dan mencari pengganti mu

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family vs harte~

October 29th, 2008 by echahchom

sebut pasal family,sume org slalu ckp “family 1st”….tapi….mcm mane istilah family 1st tuh sbnr nye?hmm…de 2 kisah utk d compare…..

yang 1st mcm nih…dari kecik smpai besar, si A membesar same2 ngn sume kezen2 die…bapak die ade 5 bradik,mak die plk ade 4 bradik….masing2 rapat2….rapat sgt….kire bleh di kate kn susah senang b’same…atok ngn nenek dua2 belah pn hepi je tgk anak cucu ade hubungan rapat cm 2…tapi…di sangke cerah hingga ke ptg,ujan trun d tghr…sumthing happened to the father…tggl lah this family with all the harte yg si bapak tggl kn…nk kate skit, x skit….nk kate byk pn,xde la byk mane…boleh la….d pendek kn cerite,si A punye family nih nmpk mcm snang skit la…n nk jd cerite pulak,harte yg d tggl kn nih,d tuntut oleh family bapak nye sbb kate mereka atok dn nenek nye ade hak…abis sume yang name bapak,dorg soh letak name dorg…kerete nye,rumah nye,epf nye,socso nye….sgale2…yg mak si A nih plk,bkn la tanak kalah…tp d sbb kn rs mcm tuntutan 2 dah lbh2,make nye utk nk slmt kn mereka anak beranak,make si mak buat la tuntutan harte spencarian…skrg nih sume tuntutan 2 x slesai2 pn lg padahal yg si ayah da xde da lame dah…tuh cite family ayah…yg dlu konon cm rpat sgt,syg n kasih sgt kat each other…yg belah si mak nih plk,d pendek kan cite,sibuk dok men dengki2…x phm la jgk ape yg nk d dengki kn sgt…alhamdulillah si mak masih ade parents tapi parents nye x bape sht…make nye, dgn ape yg die mmpu,die buat la everything…dgn ubat nye,dgn bil hospital nye…everything…yg adik badek die yg len plk,dok sibuk nk amik kesempatan…bkn la x boleh…tp agak2 la….klo dah ade anak2 sendri yg dah bekerja,bokpe nk p paw kat mak si A ni kn…mmg x agak2…yang si mak nih pn ade je anak yg perlu d ade kn keperluan t’tentu…yg ngn kluarge mentua mcm 2,yg ngn kluarge sndri mcm nih…last2 si A nih jz hv each other between the mothr n other siblings je…pasal duit,psl harte,family jd mcm ni..

yang second plk…cite menarik…mak si B ade 13 adek bradik…si B nih pn mcm si A jgk…membesar same2 ngn all the kezens…bile dah besar,its so happend yg mak bapak die divorce…bapak kawen lain,mak duduk jauh,yg die plk kat kL…si B nih nk kate tua,xde la tua mane…nk kate mude,matang la jgk bdk nye….d pendek kan cite,adek badek mak die nih,mcm2 pi’il…ade 1 of bapak sdare die,addict 2 drug…kezen plk,ade yg pecah2 umh…ade yg susah yg sgt2 susah smapi kdg mkn,beras pn xde…n ade yg b’jy,ade busines smpai luar negare…tapi…dorg sume rapat je sesame sndri….they really hve each other yg btol2 nye hv each other….yg ade duit,x lokek nk tolong yg susah…yg susah,seda dri je n x amik ksmpatan…in fact they work for sumthing so that ape yg dorg dpt 2 is sumthing yg dorg usehe kn…dorg x discriminate pn yg si “perompak” n si ‘penagih’ tuh…dorg stil boleh duduk same2,mnum,mkn,lpk n hv time to sembang2…n yet,yg si penagih masih amk bnde2 tuh sume n si pecah rumah,masih pjg tgn…n sape yg slh,tetap slh…wlo die drug addict skali pn,kdg dorg gune pkai je ape yg btol…no discrimination…bile jd slh phm ke ape ke,they manage 2 sit n discuss n find the solution same2….wut a family kn…pasal duit,psl harte,family si B jd mcm ni plk..

its reality of life but sumtimes reality is like fantasi~

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tentang ayah….lagi~

September 7th, 2008 by echahchom

mlm jum ri 2…tgh dok hang out ngn adk2 tetibe dpt msg dpd kakak senior….die btau yg ayah kpd kapten voli meninggal at 8pm…mase tuh pkol 12mlm…t’senyap kejap sbb slame nih xde plk dgr cite ape2 psl ayah die sakit ke ape ke…rpe2 nye,ayah die mninggal sbb xcident…INNALILLAH…hr jumaat+bulan ramadhan…smoge Allah tmpt kn pakcik husni d tmpt org2 yg soleh…smoge Allah tmpt kn ayah2 kami d tmpt yg mulia,insyaAllah…

kepade umai,tbah kan ati…kuat kn smgt…x Allah uji hmbe NYE melainkan DIA tahu hmbe t’sebut boleh melalui nye…

AL-FATIHAH~

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its all about dad~

August 20th, 2008 by echahchom

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im a big big girl
in a big big world
its not a big big thing
if u leave me
but i do do feel
that i do do will
miss u much
miss u much

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nih lagu tema diri sndri since 7 yrs ago…since ayah left us…yg
pegi,tetap pegi n x kn kembali…yg masih ada,hidup msti d
troskan…ngn sbr n tabah…redha n pasrah…
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23 MARCH 2001(9muharam)4pagi~that was the moment my mom become a single
mother n ktorg 10 bradek jd anak yatim…it was hard…ya..it was
really hard…hard for me…hard for ummi…hard for abg…hard for
paktok,maktok,along,acu…hard for everybody…why?sbb ayah left us
afta an hour we had a chat with him…how?well…here’s the story….
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22 MARCH 2001(8muharam)
tokyah and maktok(ummi’s) ade kat umah…sume org pn ade kat umah…tp
tokyah and maktok nk balik perak dah sbb dorg de kat kL dkt
sbln…tokyah kate tokyah da rndu kat ayam(mase nih ayam tokyah blom
kne virus brung lg)…hm,alasan biase atok2 n nenek2 klo nk
balik…make nye,mlm tuh,afta mghrb,ayah pn sj la nk bwk tokyah
jln2,mkn2…tokyah kate,tokyah t’ingin nk mkn satay…so,ayah pn bawak
la ktorg p mkn satay kat R&K satay…tp mase tuh,maktok kate maktok
tanak p sbb maktok x larat nk jln…jd,ummi pn x p jgk sbb nk teman
maktok kat umh…make nye,its only
ayah,tokyah,abg,me,ejam,man,meen,moon,haja,ali,sarah n uma(mase nih umo
die 3thn)…so,we went there…mkn n mkn…minum n minum…sembang n
sembang…smpai pkol 11 mlm pn kami dok mkn lg…xde gaye cm nk blk
pn…slalu nye klo kuar mkn rmai2 cm nih,plg lmbt pn pkol 1130mlm da blk
umah,dah bleh nk tdo sgale dah…tp dis time,ayah asek soh tmbh je,ayah
soh mkn smpai kenyang…make nye,kami pn balon 2-3 round jgk la satay
nye…mkn nye mkn,pkol doblas(kire da masok 23hb mac 2001) pn ktorg x
blk2 lg…dok t’congok kat restoran tu lg…ayah ngn tokyah dok borak
sakan ag…ktowg plk,cm da kenyang,da ngntok,dok je la kat s2 xde wat
ape…adk2 da men lari2 dah kat R&K satay 2…smpai pkol 1230 mlm br la
ktorg grk blk…2 pn lps ktorg dok gadoh ajak ayah blk sbb ngntok,nk
tdo sgale(aku la yg bsing lbh mase nih sbb aku esk nye kije~tgh tggu
result spm)…make…kami pn pulang…akhir nye…smpai kat umah,ummi
tgh dok tgk tv ag…sme2 org pn yg konon td cm ngantok sgt,pn smbg lyn
tv gak…tp aku mase tuh mate mmg dah x tahan sgt…aku pn mntk izin
ngn ummi ngn ayah nk nek tdo dlu…mate mmg da berat,da x daye sgt dah
nk tahan…so,aku pn naik la…tggl adk2 n ayah dok smbg2 lg…mase tuh
abg xde sbb abg p anta ejam kat skola…die ade program(mase nih dlm
pkol 1 pg jgk la)…dlm pkol 2pg lbh,aku t’jg tdo sbb
adk2(meen,moon,haja) br masuk blk,bsg2 nk salin bj,br nk tdo…aku
hangin kat dorg sat,pa2 aku smbg tdo…(ape yg aku pnt sgt,aku pn x
tau)….tdo punye tdo…smpai la pkol 3pg aku t’jg lg skali sbb ummi
kjot…t’jg 2 pn sbb bunyik pn2(ummi tolak kuat sgt~gedegang!!)…smbl
ummi ckp,"kakak…ayah…"…..aku bgn…duduk…cube nk proses ape yg
ummi cube nk smpai kn…aku x tau knape…tp mase tuh aku t’igt  psl
7thn yg lps..(klo skrg kire 14 yrs ago la)..time ayahlong meninggal…mcm tuh jgk care ummi kjot
aku…ummi ckp,"kakak…ayahlong…" but this time,ummi
ckp,"kakak….ayah…."….dlm ati aku…"x kn kot"…lame jgk aku
duduk x bgn2…smpai la ummi dtg lg skali…ummi kate,"cpt tgk
ayah…ayah breathing pelik…"….aku pn bgn….tros p blk
ummiayah…blom pn masuk blk ummi,aku da dgr bunyik pelik(dgn kate
lain,bunyik mcm nafas lmbu yg br lps kne smbelih)…masuk je blk,aku
tgk ayah dok t’baring kat sejadah…(ayah mmg slalu solat mlm~kdg2 ktorg
bgn skali~n smntare nk tggu sbuh,ayah tdo je jp kat sejadah)….ummi
soh aku dok kat tepi ayah…soh ngucap kat telinge ayah…mase tuh aku
pegang tgn ayah…sejuk…aku pegang kaki ayah…pn sejuk…bile ummi
tgk aku cm2,ummi soh aku bc syahadah lg skali kat telinge ayah…mase
tuh,aku jd marah kat ummi…knape ummi mcm nk biar ayah mati?…nape nk
soh aku wat bnde yg aku tanak wat…mase tuh aku x rs cm aku nk bc
syahadah pn tp aku rs cm nk wat CPR kat ayah…tp aku x reti…tp aku
nk cube…mase aku nk wat tuh,ummi kate jgn…nnt bdn ayah skt…sbb
mase tuh,ayah da cm nyawe2 ikan…again,ummi soh aku wat ape yg ummi
soh wat td…aku usap kpale ayah,aku bisik syahadah kat telinge
ayah…ummi soh aku ulang sbb ummi kate mulut ayah b’gerak…aku x daye
nk tgk…aku smbam je kat muke ayah smbl ngucap kat telinge ayah byk2
kali…at the same time,ummi tpn ambulan,tpn dr halim(yg wat kes liwat
anwar) dpn umh…abs tpn,ummi turun,bukak pn2 utk dr halim…mase dr
halim smpai,mase nih br la abg n tokyah naik(dorg tdo kat bwh~t’jg sbb
tetibe cm kalut kn)…dr halim naik n check ayah…wat CPR sgale…tp
by that time,aku tau its 2 late…x lame lps tuh,dr halim sah kan yg
ayah da xde(mase nih,pkol 4pg)…tokyah tros nangis…tp ummi tabah
je…ummi x nangis pn….aku,x tau nk wat ape…n mase nih x nangis pn
lg sbb cm tgh blur…tgh x sangke kot yg ayah da xde…ummi soh p kjot
adk2,aku pn p la kjot dorg…abg plk,p amk ejam blk kat skola…tokyah
trun p btau maktok yg ayah da xde…maktok nangis…maktok nk nek tgk
ayah wlo pn kaki maktok skt n susah nk jln…tokyah la yg susah payah
papah maktok…x lame lps tuh ambulan smpai…mase nih aku gado n tggi
sore ngn org ambulan tuh sbb bg aku he’s being rude…smpai2 je die ty
mane org yg skt 2…abg pn bwk die naik n tunjuk blk ayah…bile org
ambulan 2 tau yg ayah da xde,die tetibe cm marah…die kate "klo da tau
da mati,buat ape pggl ktorg?buang mase je…"…mase tuh,aku mmg da
t’bakar…agak nye mase tuh ummi da nmpk aku cm da nk jwb,ummi jwb
dlu…ummi kate,ayah br xde dlm 5-10min lps…pa2 ummi ty nape ambulan
lmbt…die pn jwb die sesat smbl tuh die tmbh "klo da tau org nye da
xde,x bleh ke infom blk kat kat kami yg org nye da x leh d slmtkn…xde
la ktorg susah2 nk dtg jgk…m’nysahkn org je…ktorg pn ade kje len
jgk"…mase tuh aku jwb…"klo iye pn nk krg aja,tlg la b’adab sket kat
si mati..respect sket kat kami…ayah saye br xde…mane la ktorg tau
bnde nye nk jd mcm ni"….org ambulan 2 tros kuar…tp smbl tu dok ckp
lg,"m’nysah kn org"…huh…org ambulan krg aja…dah la die yg
sesat…p2 nk mra2 org…tah pape…mase tuh da t’burai dah air mate
aku…aku marah cmpor sedih…abg pn tarik aku,pelok aku…lg la aku
m’lalak2…aku bnci ambulan…huu…dlm mase yg same,ummi da stat tpn
kwn2 ayah…adk2 plk dok keliling ayah dok bc yasin…aku,mntk fon kat
ummi sbb nk impom kwn2…tp aku x tau nk tpn sape…sbb time tuh pg sgt
kn…sume pn msti dok tdo ag…lame sket br aku decide tpn tra(sbb aku
tau tra slalu gayut pg2…=p…)…lps tpn tra,aku tpn jela plk…dorg
la yg impom mmbr2 aku yg lain…lps tuh,aku da xigt ape2 lg….tau2 je
rumah da kemas…meja,sofa sume da xde~da bwk p umh sblh,ayah plk da
bwk trun,org da rmai…aku da x igt sape yg salam,peluk aku,ckp takziah
sgale….sbb mase tuh aku rase cm aku nk mati skali dgn ayah(smpai ade
p’cubaan bunuh dri pa2 kne tmpr dgn acu)…aku x igt aku mkn ke x,aku
mnum ke x…aku x heran kat org keliling aku,aku x pedulik kat adk2
aku…smpai la ummi soh aku tabah utk adk2…ummi kate,klo ummi
sorg2,ummi x daye…she said,she needs me as much as adk2 need me…lps
tuh br aku cr mane adk2 aku…yg sorg tgh dok nangis kat tepi
longkang…yg sorg dok kat tepi ayah,tanak p mane2…yg sorg dok ngn
ummi,pn tanak gerak2….mase tuh sume org kucar-kacir….srabut…aku
sndri x tau nk wat ape bile tgk adk2 aku cm tuh…seb bek n
alhamdulillah la jiran2 n rakan2 byk tlg…kwn2 soh aku dok je
diam2…nnt dorg yg tgk kn adk2 aku…jiran2 plk tlg msk utk
ktorg…jiran kanan bg lunch…jiran blkg bg dinner…jiran dpn bg
brekfes esk pg nye…syukor sgt…sgt2 syukor…tp ade je bnde yg ktorg
t’kilan…aku,t’kilan sbb x tahan dpd tdo mlm tuh…x smpt nk smbg2 ngn
ayah utk kali t’akhir…adk2 kate,mlm tuh ayah asek ckp je,"klo ayah
xde….klo ayah xde….klo ayah xde…"….byk pesan yg ayah tggl
kn…tp sume tuh adk2 je yg smpai kn kat aku…ummi plk kate ummi x
smpt nk mkn same2 ngn ayah utk kali t’akhir…tp ummi kate ummi
b’syukur je sbb smpai saat mati ayah pn,ayah still murah rezeki…btol
jgk tuh….tp…antare byk2….ktorg sume t’kilan sbb x dpt nk smpn
ayah awl…lps asar br dpt smpn ayah…lmbt sgt…sbb nye,tggu family
ayah smpai dpd kedah…sian ayah…lame tggu…tp lps
tuh,alhamdulillah…urusan sume slesai,d mudah kn n b’jln ngn
lancar…al-Fatihah utk ayah~
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n that’s wut hepend quite 7 yrs ago…mase abg lg sthn nk abs dip…aku
tgh tggu result spm…ejam f4,man f2,meen f1,moon n haja primary 5,aali
primary 2,sarah tadika n uma blom skolah….
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skrg….uma dah darjah 5,sarah upsr,aali br abs wat tahfiz n thn dpn
masuk f4…moon n haja, o’level…meen kat joden…man,ICT
uia…ejam,nursing uia…n abg da de family sndri,ank pn da nk masuk
3(anytime by this aug)…aku??well,sabtu nih konvo…finally….this is
wut i cn do for ummi n adk2,ayah…n its for u jgk…wlo pn ayah x smpt
nk tgk ank2 ayah as wut we r now tp ktorg tau this is wut you n ummi
want…we’ll b ok,insyaAllah…tp dlm mase yg same,how i hope u’ll b
here with us…for my konvo…ayah,this is the best i cn do for u,for
ummi n adk2…lillahi ta’ala,insyaAllah….

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As a child there were them times

I didn’t get it but you kept me alive

I didn’t know why I didn’t show sometimes

On several mornings and "I miss you"

but we never talk to

All them grown full things

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show because

You loved me and obviously

There’s so much more left to say

If you were with me today face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

"I wish I could try not to cry"

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I’ll give the world to see your face

And I’m bragging right next to you

It feels like you gone too soon

The hardest thing to do is say bye

And you never got the chance to
see how good I’ve done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to

me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

you can make it through whatever

It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

"I wish I could try not to cry"

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I’ll give the world to see your face

And I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon

The hardest thing to do is say bye

bye bye bye bye bye bye 

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kecik ati~

August 12th, 2008 by echahchom

klo nk b’ckp psl kecik ati nih,susah…kang kite dok sebut psl kecik ati kite,tetibe plk kang ade plk org len yg kecik ati sbb kite kecik ati…hm,ape2 je lah…yg penting aku kecik ati…ngn sape?ngn die tu…die ni…die kat sane…die kat sini pn aku kecik ati gk…die kat dpn…die yg kat blkg…alamak…mcm tgh kecik ati ngn sume org plk…hohoh…ntah…mungkin ye…mungkin x…xtau…kecik2 ati nih jgn d lyn sgt…t dri sndri yg susah…mcm la org heran pn kite dok kecik ati nih…ye dak?tah2 org len pn dok kecik ati ngn aku…tp sape tau kn…sndri mau igt a…x ksh…xpe la…ape yg korg nk,itu la yg korg akn dpt…jgn kecik ati ngn aku sudah…tp klo nih jz slh phm,bgs jgk…leh la kite clear cut everything….tp klo dah wat senyap cm nih,cm ne a aku nk tau…xde sape leh bc ati sape2…tuh yg klo msg2 kecik ati pn xde sape tau…huuu…pape pn,aku mohon maap sgt2 klo ape yg aku nk wat lps nih,korg t’kecik ati…aku x b’niat…tp klo itu yg korg nk,itu la jgk yg aku akn bg…aku akn cube wat yg t’baik…korg jgn kecik ati…again,korg jgn kecik ati ngn aku…sgt2 jgn…sori again,tp klo ade ape2,aku ade je kat sni…cr je aku…sbb bkn aku yg nk ptus kn frenship nih…aku hrp,nih sume slh phm je…biar la mase yg tentukn…pape pn,aku still syg korg…ape yg jd nih,aku x rugi ape2 pn…n ape yg da jd pn,aku x nyesal skit pn…take care everyone~

p/s:hadapi dgn senyuman lagi~  *sigh*

~org yg kuat adalah org yg apabila d timpa ujian,dia mengucapkan innalillahi wa inna ilaihi raji’un smbl t’senyum~

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orang tua~

July 4th, 2008 by echahchom

susah nye kije klo org bwh kite lg tua..bkn la tua yg mcm maner tp lagi tua dr kite..dorg wat kite nih cm x tau pape..cm bodoh je..cm tongong..tetibe dorg plk yg soh kite wat cm tuh cm nih sgale..padahal sblm kije,aku da bc pn sgale jobscope aku..bodoh sgt ke aku nih smpai ape yg ade dlm ketas tuh aku x phm??huh..bengang nih!!bengang tahap gaban!!sume pn budget tua,aku kne hormat a!!No way man..klo ko pn xleh respect aku,jgn harap la ko dpt bnde yg same dr aku..xyh la wat aku nih cm bodoh,tolol,bangang sgt..aku pn tau je ape yg aku nk wat..yg aku x leh wat pn aku tau jgk..x yh nk m’arah aku sbb korg bkn bos aku..korg adelah org yg cm bgs,yg x reti nk respect org n ske pandang rendah kat org len..pa2 keco2 blkg,bz body sgale..korg xde kne mngene ngn aku pn..mls nk lyn..bos pn x bsing,so korg jgn lbh2..xyh nk kecoh2 sbb ape yg aku wat,bos tau..aku bkn nye kne btau korg pn ape yg aku nk wat..x yh mntk izin ngn korg pn..sbb tuh aku ckp korg xde kne mngene ngn aku..sbb mmg xde kne mngene pn..naseb la korg tua dr aku..aku leh emo n t’tekan sorg2 cm nih je la..ye lah..xkn org bg taik kt pn nk bg taik kn..cme aku kesian kat korg..dah tua2 pn dok bz body sgale lg..dok asek nk carik psl..dok asek nk tuding jari kat org len..kesian2..aku nk ngate lbh2 pn,aku tua sok,aku x tau aku caner..xpe lah..kot ske ati korg lah..aku ske ngn kije aku n aku x kn biar kn korg effect kije aku..korg nk wat ape pn,buat la..nk ponteng kije ke,nk lari blk awl ke ape ke,aku x heran..ckup bln,punch kad x pnoh,bkn slh aku la klo gaji korg kne potong ye..sendri mau igt..lu pikir la sndri!!

p/s:sape yg mkn cili,die la yg t’rs pedas nye…lalala~\(^_^)/

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k0s0ng~

July 2nd, 2008 by echahchom

Tried to take a picture of love
Didn’t think I’d miss him that much~tp ase nye dok miss je…=( 

I want to fill this new frame
But its empty


Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we’re trying


Trying too hard~ tp ase nye cm x pnh try pape…huk2   =(

Maybe we’re torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We’re empty


And I’ve even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we’re trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we’re torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We’re empty
We’re empty
We’re empty

Maybe it’s our first mistake
that’s alright
That’s the reason why
When you’re young you fall in love
And there’s a reason why they say that we should give it time
But time is not enough

Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There’s so much more than we can see
More than you
More than me
It takes two to believe~

~ma fren said: "True love is when your heart and your mind,saying the same thing"~

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